Sometimes it doesn't have to be the actual departure from the world to be only considered as death , a person dies whenever he or she is wronged . I know i might sound over dramatic but you always have your own little encounter with death ... the cold ,merciless , numbing reality that you cannot away run from when you loose someone you hold dear , a friend , a lover , a dream , an ambition , or you ......
Every time i ended something on a bad note , with hurt, a part of me died , a part of me became ruthless, cruel ,maybe vulnerable too .. as they say " once a wound is exposed .. you cannot expect anything but attack " . I always thought that maybe next time i'd act rather mature about it without realizing that rather than gaining anything i was loosing the very precious pieces of me . The very person i was in the beginning was lost ,in her place was this unknown person that i don't even remember i ever knew .
When i became this self centered person i know not , when did I, Me , Myself became my priority i don't remember ... all i know that the day that happened a part of me died . The day i knew that this was not right but i embarked on the journey anyway i knew i was dead inside , the day things stopped being black or white but a shade of grey i knew i was in purgatory.
All i am doing now is waiting for hell to brake loose but i know it won't i know ,i have to go through everything as if its not a big deal but it is .. death doesn't come easy but what if you are already dead before you come face to face with the actual one ...
Life is a vague notion because all our life what we wait for is to be good enough so we can die in peace .. i say we experience death at every point we decide that we are going against our own soul grain .. whenever we wrong a friend , whenever we are cruel to the people around us , whenever we take someone for granted and then leave the person as if we never knew him or her , when we stop caring for issues that we once cared for ,a part of us dies ... same happens when we give our everything to a cause and end up broken , hurt , angry
I don't say loosing someone or departing from the earth is not sorrowful it sure is but so is loosing the very you because when ever you loose a part of your soul you cannot bring it back and you realize it after a time when you can do nothing about it , all you can do is move on .... i don't have any right to offend anyone but then what do i say on that or why do i care about that cause as far as i know
Every time i ended something on a bad note , with hurt, a part of me died , a part of me became ruthless, cruel ,maybe vulnerable too .. as they say " once a wound is exposed .. you cannot expect anything but attack " . I always thought that maybe next time i'd act rather mature about it without realizing that rather than gaining anything i was loosing the very precious pieces of me . The very person i was in the beginning was lost ,in her place was this unknown person that i don't even remember i ever knew .
When i became this self centered person i know not , when did I, Me , Myself became my priority i don't remember ... all i know that the day that happened a part of me died . The day i knew that this was not right but i embarked on the journey anyway i knew i was dead inside , the day things stopped being black or white but a shade of grey i knew i was in purgatory.
All i am doing now is waiting for hell to brake loose but i know it won't i know ,i have to go through everything as if its not a big deal but it is .. death doesn't come easy but what if you are already dead before you come face to face with the actual one ...
Life is a vague notion because all our life what we wait for is to be good enough so we can die in peace .. i say we experience death at every point we decide that we are going against our own soul grain .. whenever we wrong a friend , whenever we are cruel to the people around us , whenever we take someone for granted and then leave the person as if we never knew him or her , when we stop caring for issues that we once cared for ,a part of us dies ... same happens when we give our everything to a cause and end up broken , hurt , angry
I don't say loosing someone or departing from the earth is not sorrowful it sure is but so is loosing the very you because when ever you loose a part of your soul you cannot bring it back and you realize it after a time when you can do nothing about it , all you can do is move on .... i don't have any right to offend anyone but then what do i say on that or why do i care about that cause as far as i know
" I AM ALREADY DEAD "
nice wrk....well put....
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